SECOND!

I'm a Virgo. I don't believe in horoscopes, but the personality traits of the signs tend to hold true..

I am a Virgo & LOVE it.. I'm critical, have high standards, and have completely emphasized emotions. I over analyze everything in my life and no matter how much I try to change that, it just doesn't happen..and lately it's been getting the best of me. Rather than try to change it, I guess I should just try to live with it & not take it as seriously as I can at times.

I don't beast for relationships, and I can't say that it's what I'm specifically looking for but, I'm saying.. If I walked into Christian Louboutin and saw a pair of shoes marked down to $100 from $900, how could I pass it up? Never pass up a good thing!...I used that example because the odds of it happening are slim to none, kind of like finding a good man. :)

..Back to the point! My critical, over-analytical, emotional tendencies get the best of me in every potential relationship. It's not the "too good to be true" deal, it's just that I tend to notice little things that could possibly be a sign of something bigger, or maybe not.. I notice slight changes in attitude, conversation, demeanor, appearance, etc. and automatically start contemplating the negative. I HATE playing the "woman scorned" role, but how can my past not influence my present & future? It's natural..& I'm just tired of history repeating itself.

Regardless, I find myself falling.. and of course over-analyzing EVERY thing. It's so corny to say, but I feel like I'm sabotaging myself. I've never tried so hard to NOT think about things as I am now. It's freakin' exhausting. Maybe I'm scared of commitment. Maybe I'm scared I might miss something better. Maybe I'm just not beat for another failed attempt.

Anyway I look at it I still see those Christian Louboutin's priced at $100, and know I'd be a fool to walk out of the store without them.