I KNOW I don't ask for much. I know what I ask is completely doable and not out of this world.
I've learned to handle relationships the way I want the other party to handle them. I don't do shit I wouldn't want done to me. I don't do things I KNOW would piss my man off, and I make every effort possible to comply with my other half's wishes, no matter what it is.
If I want to do something, and my man asks me not to..and he does so sincerely, I sure as hell won't do it. Period. Its about respect and reciprocation. Golden-rule-ish, if you will. I won't put up a fight, no matter how simple it is. Will I be mad or annoyed? Yeh probably...but the point is, I'd still be able to respect wishes.
Women are difficult. So are dudes, but WOMEN are difficult. I am a woman, figure out the rest. I know sometimes what I ask for may be too simple for a dude to register as "important" but its still what I'm asking for. I honestly, seriously, whole-heartedly believe that I deserve the simple things that I ask for because I KNOW they are possible!
Its not about me being "spoiled" or "always needing to be right" because I DON'T need that. Its about the fact that I would bend over backwards with my hands tied, blindfolded...for my man. That is the person I am.
That is the person I am, and that won't change. What does need to change is the fact that I really EXPECT that to be reciprocated to the same extent as my own ways. Maybe I shouldn't expect it, but I'm allowed to at least ask for it.
I don't like feeling like this. I don't like feeling like I'm not being understood or listened to. I don't like feeling like I'm being fed responses to make me stop arguing my point. I don't like going to bed upset, and I don't like feeling like you really don't care...when that's about all I do..
